let's driveeee

Finally started learning driving after two months of laziness. I was supposed to be nervous and anxious about it, but i felt damn comfortable with it. My instructor was even eating and using phone while i was driving. hello, trust me so much with your precious car? Need more practices for my turning. Had and still have not much idea on exactly how much to turn. Totally understand why auto-driving is easier, much much easier. The clutch was hard to control. Yet overall is manageable. 

risk

I made my decision then I changed it. thought through every aspect, reading forum after forum, this route is the conclusion. the last thing I would want is to regret it. ee is gonna be my next passion.

went malaysia the past two days to visit my grandparents. my grandma aged and is still aging. her hair turned ridiculously white. my mind even had the omg expression. sometimes I wish I could stay there longer to accompany the elderly more.

Just when i thought everything is more or less settled, more problems came knocking on my door. hell it lah, no point escaping or whatsoever.

I just can't pick up the courage to tell him last night. It was vesak's day, everyone was probably much drained out from the hectic night. Telling him personally would hurt him. But telling him over a text message would definitely be a cowardly act. I really don't wish to affect him at work. and myself as well, we work in the same restaurant and we take the same bus home. How damn awkward it will be, I don't wish to imagine. Everything is as fine as it is now. But yeah giving no answer is not in my option.

i freaking hell know i got to stop this